How the day ended up

I ended up getting a call from a friend who wanted me to go out with her to do stuff with the kids!! We went to the park and let all the kids run and play and totally wear themselves out!! It was so nice to come home to have naps all around, til my son woke up 10 minutes into his nap!! I hate that he is starting to give up naps just as the new baby is going to be here soon. I am sure the new baby will keep him up at some point though to make him tired enough to take a nap!! After the park we all had lunch together nothing better than 6.00 dollar pizza buffet were all of our kids eat free!! After lunch we went our separate ways though everyone  needed there nap time. Later last night my husband OFFERED to BBQ and we had Danielle and her husband and son over. It was such a nice time. I have found that surrounding myself with people I actually want to be around and want to be around me it makes the depression 200% better. I am going out and about with Danielle again today to do a baby registry. If it weren't for Daniella I would have a registry full of blue and green stuff that looked to boy-ish  for a girl, she is so into the girl stuff I think that boy stuff is so much more cute than pink and frills. Although she does get me excited about most of the stuff!! I am so glad i have finally found someone who I can shop and spend time with and it isn't my mother and doesn't mind actually being with me!!

Let me introduce myself.

 I am a stay-at-home mother; I have a wonderful two year old little boy, and I am expecting a little girl on Aug 28,2011. My name is Kayla Newitt; and I am suffering through depression. I am currently 27 weeks along. I can't take any depression medication due to the pregnancy. I have recently started therapy, I have only been to one session, although it seems to have helped a lot. I don't have much of a support system to rely on right now other than my wonderful, amazing and couldn't ask for better husband. My younger sister, who is also expecting about 4 weeks behind me and 17, has my mother and everyone else for that matter wrapped around her finger so tightly that she has received no punishment for her action at all. Might I also mention the father of the child is also unknown due to the number of partners, some of who are over 18; oh and when the child was conceived more likely than not she was only 16 when the all of this happened. I am treated and made to feel like, weather intentional or not,  a bad mother, a bad person, and a bad wife. I have recently started imposing very, very  strict rules when it comes to being allowed to be with my son and my self. My sister is no longer under any circumstances allowed to be around my son and I prefer not to be around her either. My mother has been made aware of and now knows that I am my son's mother and my rules go. This has not gone over so well and this is one of the biggest sources of depression. I no longer have a baby sitter, or anyone who can understand my point of view on anything, not that my mom did much before. because my sister has everyone so wrapped it is almost looked at as a good thing that she is pregnant and my mother is encouraging my 17 year old sister who is still in high school and can't pass the ninth grade to keep and try and raise a child. I am very, very, very opposed to this idea and no one else in my family seems to understand that this is a very bad idea.